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Ah nostalgia ! thou art a heartless bitch

 Why do I watch the dumb teenage dramas, why am I still not over Harry Potter verse, why do rom-coms still make it to my watchlist? 

I blame nostalgia and the feeling that comes with it.  Remember the times when world was exciting, you were discovering all these things (mostly through these teenage rom-coms ,novels , tv series) and the butterflies rise in your stomach. You know those momentary goosebumps. And it was such a great feeling, that sense of hope, mystery of future possibilities, when adulthood was one big adventure.

And here we are in adulthood, soaked in routine, responsibilities and deadlines. Have you ever wondered what the word 'I' means to you now? What living for yourself feels like? And I am not talking about world travel shit, or living it recklessly, or selfishly , just living on your terms. I can't , you can't , because that's how the adult world works. It's sucking the life out of me, the glimmer of hope I had growing up, the will to learn and grow, it just sucks up everything beautiful. And that's when I like to be reminded of it all again, with these time capsules of rom-coms, books and memoirs, they make my life more livable!

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